Another day. I would like to know where to find time to do the things I would like to do or accomplish??? I would like to start an Etsy store of my very own. Yes... first I need to make stuff. I am pretty crafty, if I do say so myself. But where to find time?? I would like to put more of what I am doing (that I am no actually doing yet... but in my mind I am) ?? on my blog. Food... crafts... life. I can barely make it through a day.. remembering to write something on here. I think I need professional help on time management.... any takers?
Today... kids program at the local library. Then maybe a nap. (still recovering from surgery) Then it will be evening... and the day's over. Ummm... what to do?
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
Monday, July 22, 2013
another day....
The family reunion was nice. I got to meet cousins I don't remember meeting. Having met them at 5 years old or so.... I still don't feel like I fit in much. But I did get to see most of the relatives. It was a long day and I over did it some. I was so tired and sore on the way home even the ice packs didn't work. Seeing the doc today. Hopefully removing a drain. Hopefully.
So, I am looking outside another hot but beautiful day in Pa... listening to Ratchet and Clank being played in the other room... wondering what to do with this certain 6 year old. Amazing the difference in what he's aloud to do compared to his older siblings. Wishing things were different. Just can't figure out how to change them....
So, I am looking outside another hot but beautiful day in Pa... listening to Ratchet and Clank being played in the other room... wondering what to do with this certain 6 year old. Amazing the difference in what he's aloud to do compared to his older siblings. Wishing things were different. Just can't figure out how to change them....
Friday, July 19, 2013
July 19, 2013
My baby boy... first born will be 23 on July 21. So hard to imagine we have come this far. He has grown into a man that his Mom and Dad are so proud of. It's just hard to believe he is grown...... married.... with a 9 month old son of his own. Of course at his age, I was pregnant with #2.
I am resting and don't feel like typing much. Surgery sucks. You get to have time off but can't do anything! AND you are always so darn tired!
Sat. is my family reunion. I find them fun and refreshing on one had... and lonely on another. I just don't seem to "fit" in. My siblings and cousins are in their 60's - I am 43. My nieces and nephews are range from early 30's to 44. So yes I grew up with my nieces and nephews... but only as small children. When everyone became teens... they all kept together... I was miles away. Now I love seeing them all. I just don't feel like I belong....
I am resting and don't feel like typing much. Surgery sucks. You get to have time off but can't do anything! AND you are always so darn tired!
Sat. is my family reunion. I find them fun and refreshing on one had... and lonely on another. I just don't seem to "fit" in. My siblings and cousins are in their 60's - I am 43. My nieces and nephews are range from early 30's to 44. So yes I grew up with my nieces and nephews... but only as small children. When everyone became teens... they all kept together... I was miles away. Now I love seeing them all. I just don't feel like I belong....
Wednesday, July 17, 2013
I just want something new.......
I just don't know where to begin. There is so much I'd like to do.... and not enough time. Here I am 40 something... and I feel like life hasn't started. I am rolling along on a tide.... being swept away. God put me here for something. I just don't know what. I am just not happy. With me. I feel lost. And it's impossible to explain all this to anyone. Some days.... I just want to run away.
I have a need to create. But what am I suppose to do?? I know... sit, listen, and listen for him to tell me. Maybe I just don't sit long enough? Maybe I am not quiet enough?? Maybe I heard... but didn't like what I heard??
I have a need to create. But what am I suppose to do?? I know... sit, listen, and listen for him to tell me. Maybe I just don't sit long enough? Maybe I am not quiet enough?? Maybe I heard... but didn't like what I heard??
Monday, July 15, 2013
thoughts....
Are you ever tired of the life you lead? Not thinking of family. I am thinking of job... house.... town.... state.... Ever wonder if there is somewhere else you are suppose to be??? Something else you are suppose to be doing??
Hubby and I have talked about these things. Our daughter is a Senior starting August.... so we decided we have a year to decide if we want to sell the house and move. Our youngest is in 1st grade this year... so moving won't be so hard on him. (Hopefully)
Ok... here is the thing... my Hubby want to move south. North Carolina. We vacation there almost every summer. I ... want to move west. Wyoming. Interesting huh? How to solve this? I'm clueless. I love OBX.
But I just felt something when I was out west visiting. Yes, I have 2 sisters in Wyoming. We have no family in North Carolina.
Here is the thing... we are different. We were raised with morals and principals of another era. We are disappointed in people and how there is no community... friendships... morals... in life now a days. How everything is going so fast. People just don't appreciate anything. Everything is disposable. From items to
people. I would like a life with less stress. A simple life with more giving. I found that in Wyoming. I felt refreshed and renewed. I had hope. I felt it wasn't too late to raise our youngest... with the same values we taught the older children.
Everything was slower. People friendly. Surprising enough,,, people smiled at you. A stranger... a new person. They talked to you like they knew you forever. Like you had always been apart of their community.
Past "a stones throw away" I don't know the people in my own neighborhood!
It's so open in Wyoming. I could breathe.... I'll just have to post some pics. When I was there... it wasn't even green and lush... and I wanted to stay....
Hubby and I have talked about these things. Our daughter is a Senior starting August.... so we decided we have a year to decide if we want to sell the house and move. Our youngest is in 1st grade this year... so moving won't be so hard on him. (Hopefully)
Ok... here is the thing... my Hubby want to move south. North Carolina. We vacation there almost every summer. I ... want to move west. Wyoming. Interesting huh? How to solve this? I'm clueless. I love OBX.
But I just felt something when I was out west visiting. Yes, I have 2 sisters in Wyoming. We have no family in North Carolina.
Here is the thing... we are different. We were raised with morals and principals of another era. We are disappointed in people and how there is no community... friendships... morals... in life now a days. How everything is going so fast. People just don't appreciate anything. Everything is disposable. From items to
people. I would like a life with less stress. A simple life with more giving. I found that in Wyoming. I felt refreshed and renewed. I had hope. I felt it wasn't too late to raise our youngest... with the same values we taught the older children.
Everything was slower. People friendly. Surprising enough,,, people smiled at you. A stranger... a new person. They talked to you like they knew you forever. Like you had always been apart of their community.
Past "a stones throw away" I don't know the people in my own neighborhood!
It's so open in Wyoming. I could breathe.... I'll just have to post some pics. When I was there... it wasn't even green and lush... and I wanted to stay....
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